Bad Idea #47: Looking Up Statistics
Oh, it is so tempting! It starts out innocently enough. I've always said that knowledge is power, so simply looking up a term, or a procedure, or a pharmaceutical seems like a good idea and it certainly can be. But I start with a specific search and next thing I know I've clicked down the daisy chain of cancer-related sites, drifting far from my original inquiry, and finding myself shaken and horrified by a heretofore-unknown-to-me-something-new to worry about. There are so many dismal numbers out there... and the language of research is by definition so devoid of humanity that it can ring as unkind to a survivor facing whatever it is the research is addressing. And then there are the nutty sites --- the ones that provide dubious information because they are ultimately trying to sell something, whether a product or a political agenda. Some of these sites are immediately obvious, but some of them are pretty slick in their ability to create fear and doubt before revealing their true nature. So why do I do this to myself?
Well, I don't do it very often anymore. Occasionally I do, and I always regret it. I think that earlier on I had a secret hope of finding some piece of information that might transform my experience in some miraculous way. Or perhaps sometimes I think it might ease my anxiety to know all the potential negative outcomes so I can be prepared for them should they occur (yeah, that never works). Whatever the reason, it isn't helpful.
So now that I've been at the business of survivorship for a while, I know to limit my searches to trustworthy sites, and I know to stick with my original search terms. While knowledge is power in many cases, it is not always so.
11/11/2022 06:01:27 pm
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